Category Archives: What’s Floating?

Days be Wastin.

WHY!? Why is it always easier to drop everything and play 12 hours of computer games.

But completely the opposite when it applies to studying. ESPECIALLY WHEN THE EXAMS ARE APPROACHING. Oh my gardzzz. Someone give me the formula to success man. Anyone?

The weather is super bad these days. Just so bad. Heavy Thunderstorms and Heat Waves of excruciating Sun tag team to make my ass sweat indoors doing nothing. I took a completely long COLD shower today. Normally I’ll just stand and enjoy scorching hot water for like 15mins till the hot water runs out. But today, it was so hot. I did that with cold water. Not even 5mins after. I felt sweat materializing. That’s how insane it is, super humid, super hot, barely any wind. When there’s wind, you can’t enjoy it. Unless you want rain everywhere.

That’s Singapore. You’ve been warned. Don’t come here. Lol.

#1 to revision success. For me that is. Changed my room light from warm yellow to daylight bulbs. Why? Because in the day I ain’t gonna be up. I’m literally a vampire. I don’t mean like I watch The Originals and The Vampire Diaries etc etc. So I’m a freak that drinks blood and shit. No. Yes I am a huge fan of those shows because they have a whole bunch of beautiful people. Okay I’m sidetracking. I just don’t really like the Sun in general. It makes me sweat, makes me get burnt. I prefer the cold to the heat. Also I feel Sunlight is more annoying to the eyes. Lol. Like it’s the angles man. Making you squint and all. No thank you. Wrinkles be gone! I prefer the night, when things are quiet. Everyone seems to be asleep, and I’m up in the quiet. In my room where it’s nice and cool with the air-conditioning pumped up with my Daylight bulbs.

They make you feel more alert is all. Yellow light just makes everything sleepy. So if you’d like to get studying in your room where the air-conditioning is, rather than in the living room and sweat your ass off. This is the way to go. For sure.

#2 No matter how little you do. A little goes a long way. I’m the kind of person that says. I’m gonna complete the whole 10 chapters in one night kinda person. But I’ll procrastinate like. OH MY GOD TEN FREAKING CHAPTERS. I feel like I set myself up for failure. So what I think is more productive is to just pick up the book and go as much as you can. Then go to bed or do whatever you want. I know people says it’s good to have goals, but if the goals make you shun what you have to do till it’s too late. I rather just take a step at a time. Comparatively I most probably wouldn’t have done those ten chapters, but just by gradually anytime of the day, pick up the text book, have a read. I cover more ground then I would have.

We’ll see how this goes.

Till next time!

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Lack of Motivation

All the time.

My exams are impending, in May. From experience I know I will start going nuts and burning midnight oil like one week away from Doomsday.

But why?! I’m human. We’re evolved and smart. We’re supposed to learn from our mistakes isn’t it. But why can’t I saddle up and buckle down. Oh my lord. Here I am whining about it watching television shows and not studying. Live example. Lol.

Sometimes I feel bouts of depression. I’m not saying I’m like suicidal or anything. But sometimes I just ponder over whats life about. We’re on this world to do what exactly? We eat, we shit, we sleep, we study, we work, we retire, we die. I mean honestly if immortality was a thing, then I would get it. Like eventually, you’ll be able to enjoy your life. But for most of us, the 99%, we don’t make it BIG BIG. We make it comfortable, or above average. Usually when we’re starting to get grey on our heads. I mean I don’t know. Like some of us strive so hard, and yet shit happens and we die too, others take the less strenuous route, and shit still happens and we die. What is the purpose? E.g. Frogs are on this Earth to eat flies and such. Plants are for oxygen and stuff. But what are humans for? We take and take and take. What do we give back. To the Earth, and not for our own benefit. I don’t know. Just feels so philosophical. HAHA.

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So I also wonder like. Why should I study so hard for. I’m already through 30% of my lifespan. Then again we don’t live for ourselves. Almost none of us do. We live for others before us. I study because my mom insists that I get a degree. I couldn’t care less to have a degree for myself. I know it’s importance. But I’m just floating. I don’t know what I want in life. I don’t have a passion.. I only want to have a job to support and provide for my mom if possible. I know she works hard to provide for me. She scrimps she saves for the future. But all this is for obligation. But what lies ahead for me.. I don’t know. Will I be stuck in a dead beat job? Miserable? Getting by day by day..

Oh god I hope not. At 24 I thought things should be more figured out by now.

You might say things like. Do what makes you happy. Etc etc. But what makes me happy is pretty generic, just like what makes everyone happy. Like traveling. Wanting to do cool stuffs like dream of being a Youtube Star, a Hollywood A List Actress. You know. Normal stuff.

Make money in a slightly “easier” way, and actually have the time to enjoy it. Of course I’m saying this. Lol. Cause I’ve never acted, or been under the scrutiny of the masses. But who knows right.

Rant over.

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